January 29, 2023 This wasn’t the way the story was supposed to go. This plot twist brought me to my knees, begging God to rewrite the last line.  I never even thought this storyline was an option. Surely, God, the author of all of this, made a mistake. This couldn’t be my next chapter.  Growing…Read more »

Grief: Lessons I’ve learned along the way.

Grief isn’t linear.  There is no timeline. The stages of grief don’t always go in a perfect order.  Grief doesn’t discriminate.  Doesn’t matter how good of a person you are or how much you pray. Life happens on life’s terms.  Grief bursts are a thing.  A grief burst is a sudden burst of grief that…Read more »

Born on purpose

The world would like to introduce  Melanie Colleen Thomas. She was born on October 16th, 1975. She entered this world with a big birthmark and a giant head.  The first picture that was ever taken of her looks like something straight out of a true crime documentary. She screamed for the first 6 months of…Read more »


July and I have had a complicated relationship. On July 2, 2006, my dad died. He left his physical body peacefully and has now passed on to a place with unicorns and rainbows. And he is probably sitting on a reclining puffy cloud right now, smiling down on me.  Maybe all that is true. God,…Read more »

Heart to Heart

My dad and I would often have what I call heart to heart moments. They aren’t really the ones that I imagine everyone thinks of. The long and intimate talks. Where you share everything that is on your heart. Ours were more of the cliff notes version of that. And still just as meaningful.  To…Read more »

Happy Birthday Dad.

Written 4/24/18 Look at that guy. That guy right there in those sweet shorts. Showing some leg. That’s my dad. And today, April 24th, is his birthday. I feel kind of tired. And a bit heavy about it. It is funny how each year is different. With all of the different holidays and milestones that…Read more »

Don’t forget…

Several years ago, a 3rd grader came to me with the biggest Post-it Note on his tiny, left cheek. Seriously. It was biggest post-it I had ever seen. And as serious as can be, he asked me, “Would it be ok if I leave this on my face so I don’t forget something?” And just…Read more »

This too shall pass

THIS TOO… SHALL PASS… I was hiking pre-covid (I guess that is a thing to say now) and there was a bit of a marine layer hanging out. AKA a blanket of clouds from time to time will settle in over the ocean.  It always passes. But while it is here, it hovers over the…Read more »

God is Light

Journal entry, 2012 I was recently sober and I was working the steps. What are the steps? They are a way of life. Steps to recovery. Steps in which you look inward and begin to uncover, discover, and discard things in your life that might be holding you back and keeping you stuck in a…Read more »

Journal entry, 2015

  So, I wrote this in my morning pages journal 5 years ago and I thought I would share it.   The word vulnerability used to make me feel like I was suffocating. It sometimes still does. I am constantly reminding myself that I am safe. And that those in my life that love me…Read more »